Pashing boys and Lighting Fires.

Last night I dreamt I met Craig Owens.
I think I pashed him.
Happy Valentines Day or happy hallmark day!
I remember at school we used to be able to send a flower to someone and then on friendship day we could too. Its always been a bit of a non event for me. Maybe I care? I don't stress over the fact I am single and have spent most of my life this way. In fact, its much easier being single out of school than in school. It seemed like every second question was "Who do you like?" or "You got a crush on anyone?". Is it really that hard to believe that I didn't have a crush on anyone. I found none of the neolithic males at my school remotely attractive? I'm 15 for christs sake, show me a book where it says I have to like someone every second of my life for the next 5 years? I had friends who always had boyfriends, they boy-hopped so to speak. I guess it made them happy.
Growing up in a country town doesnt give one much interesting fodder to chew on.

Of course, its much harder now to even think about it. Perhaps if I had gotten all this self conscious bullshit out of my system in my youth (HAHA) then it would be easier. You see with school, some one always knows someone else, who knows someone else so you can get the dirt on who ever it may be so you have a small idea of what your getting yourself into. Out of school you meet people. Lots of people. And it works differently. The way relationships start, evolve.
Think about it.
It does.

Oh well.
As angsty as this could sound.
Its not ment to be.

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I hope its raining in Victoria at the moment. They need it. I cry every time its on the TV or when I read about it in the paper.
Its hard to believe its long a 10 hour drive from my house? Maybe a little more.
Such a waste of life.
And the animals?
The poor darlings.
Whole families.

Life is precious.

And think about it, what is Valentines Day compared to life and living?
Nothing really.