6.48am

i should be asleep. really, i should. im too afraid i will sleep through my alarm. i really am that tired.
i have to drive to muswellbrook today to work. ive spent the morning talking to someone i dont know on msn and downloading tunes.
my neck is sore. i miss having coloured hair. pink hair to be exact. i will keep burning this candle at both ends for the moment. 2 weeks left at muswellbrook. two weeks. thank fucking god. ive smoked way to many cigarettes since three am when i brought my packet.
might go buy a V or four. i really am just too afraid to sleep. i dont know where my actual alarm clock is. the phone doesnt suffice anymore. i know i would wake up... because i have too. i am just afraid i wont. its irrational really. i go out all night, set my alarm when the suns rising and go to work. once i didnt get home till 6.30am, slept for two hours, then got up and drove to muswellbrook to work. I got home at 3am this morning and dont start till 4pm so i dont have to leave till 2. this is so stupid. stupid. stupid. stupid.
i dont even want to go.

current eargasm's include but are not limited to:
raindrops- basement jaxx
ive got friends- manchester orchestra
sticks n stones- jamie t
heart- bertie blackman
the girl and the robot- royksopp
counterpoint- delphic

as you can see, alot of jjj at the moment.
i have no computer.
the only shit i have on cd is amity, underoath, these arms are snakes and chiodos.
this will not do. i need my dance gavin dance.
maybe its time for me to purchase an album.
or download it all again.
or rape someones hard drive.
thats it. im putting an mp3 player on laybuy for myself. this simply will not do!