ponstan

we have the nets at my house now.
hooray.
its easier to be honest with my self than everyone else. its always been this way.
people are their worst critic.
i am growing tired of the weekly treck to muswellbrook to work 3 shifts at the servo. the money is brilliant and i get to see my friends and family but newcastle is my home. i want to be there 24/7 instead of back in muswellbrook.
there are several things i do not like about the town. mostly, its "small town syndrome". people spend more time talking about others than themselves. its like a bigger, nastier version of high school in someways.
in muswellbrook people know me as that weird girl who has the crazy/pink hair at the bogas. i never rated much of a mention when i was at school. finished school then i piss bolted to newcastle.
then apparently i got "drug fucked", or at least thats what was said in muswellbrook. if any one really wanted to know what was going on, they just could have asked.
i moved back so i can save money and get well again. i didnt save any money. i spent it on piss, cigs, petrol and drugs. I am a class-a human being i tell you. in fact, after moving back, i even scored myself a rumour. how sweet is that! people know piss all about me then go and believe this jerk that i had sex with him. on my first weekend back too. i was so cranky when i got home i had the shakes, mum noticed (might have been too much alcohol too haha). i knew the moment i walked out that it didnt matter if something had happened, everyone would assume so anyway.
i also hate the way the sporting "elite" of the town are put on a pedestool by others which seems to increase their headsize but unfortunatly not their brain size.
i hate their pack mentality.
i hate them.
in general- cunts.
there i said it.
cunt. cunt. cunt. cunt. fuck you, you cunt.
and in other news-
i think the weirdest things sometimes.
when i drive i pretend i have lasers on my car and i am shooting other cars if they piss me off.
i talk to myself alot.
my mum just gave me ponstan for when i have period pain.
/rant